Sitting in the hospital bed almost midnight. Once again my body not dealing well with the chemo regiment that has been handed down. I break down cry because when is enough ENOUGH? I get it yep I have cancer I have been handed my sentence and will have to live that hanging over me like a cloud, but do I need this constant in and out of the hospital and getting sick where I feel I dont have a life or quality of life. I feel like a burden to the man I love. I feel I am missing more of my children than I already do due the divorce.